Well, it's been more than a week since my last update. This "weekly" thing is going well. I have been wanting to write for over a week but each time I start, I end up deleting any progress I make. I just haven't known what to say. In addition to that, I've also been writing quite a few essays so I haven't felt particularly inclined to sit down and write for my own amusement. Sometimes, I have so many things on my heart that I don't even know where to start writing. I tend to get so overwhelmed with an onslaught of thoughts and then they all just come out in jumbled sentences and gibberish. That may be the case for today's post, but hopefully there will be some clarity to be found in what I write. In four days, I will have been here for a month. I feel like I've been here for years. I also feel like my time here is going by so quickly that I have trouble going to sleep at night for fear of not relishing every moment spent here. I don't know what it is about this place, but I can say with complete sincerity that I have never been so happy in my life. I wake up happy, I go to class happy, I very happily eat the delicious lunches provided every day at one... I even take cold showers (I've had three this week) without getting too bent out of shape. I lay my head down at night with a happy heart, thankful for another day well spent. I've moved away from home a few times in the past and each move has been accompanied by homesickness and complete sadness. Now here I am, halfway across the world, and I am having nightmares about Texas. Two nights ago, I dreamed I was back home and all I could say in my dream was, "I'm not supposed to be here; I'm supposed to be in Scotland." I love my family and I love my home... but it doesn't even feel right to call it home right now. I've cried one time (read: shed two tears) and it was because I was thinking about having to leave. I'm full of so much joy and I know it's just God shining down on me. It's so wonderful being in His will and knowing I'm exactly where He wants me. He is the source of my joy and I'm so incredibly thankful for what He is already doing in my life. That's not even the tip of the iceberg regarding what's going on in my life (and in my head right now) but that's where I'm going to leave it. I have a test tomorrow and I need to study. Things I love right now:
1. The people I'm surrounded by on a daily basis. 2. Wearing cool weather clothes. 3. The time and opportunity to practice piano. 4. The ability to strive to be a better version of myself. 5. Having my mind blown on a daily basis by how much God loves us.
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Holly Nelson
9/25/2015 09:43:47 am
I love your list of loves in each post. It's a great way to sum up what life is doing. :)
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Sandra Egan
9/26/2015 06:29:51 pm
Ashton I am extremely happy and proud. You are a breath of fresh air. And the joy of the LORD you have is wonderful. I'm glad you're not homesick. I love you and thank you sharing with all of us that love you. Stay Happy and Blessed Sweet Girl!!!!❤️
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